buy a KCN pill online and carryiit around your neck, it's painless. you immediately lose conscious because your cells are unable to use oxygen, brain death occurs and you'll die. This is by far the best suicide method. I too carry it with me, I got it from the chemistry lab at college. Trust me, anon, there's no point in living a life when your body is unable to sustain itself. death is better. we all will die but you will die painfully and with humiliation if you don't end this now.