Literally me bro
It almost seems like a distant dream that i was once a schoolboy with a lot of optimism and curiosity, and actually enjoyed life.
I feel nothing these days. I am like the achaposter but irl. no matter what happens i just say 'acha' and carry on. I have no empathy for people, or for myself. Had a bike accident aur jab gir ke sab kuch ruka, to bas itna socha "are yaar" laid there for a couple of seconds, people tried to help me up. I just looked at the damage saw that the bike was still rideable, and carried on to my destination. Absolutely no thoughts. i just try to pick the shortest chain of events that would allow me to come home and sleep. It prevents me from feeling happy but the upside is that things that make me sad are pretty dampened too. Whatever happens, i just accept.